A Spirit Driven Existence

It’s been a long time since I’ve published something on this blog and for that I’m sorry. And the longer it has been, the harder it becomes to get started.

I regularly perform tarot readings for myself and record my feelings about the reading in my tarot journal. This is to help me become a more intuitive tarot reader by allowing Spirit to give me a larger frame of reference for card meanings but, beyond that, it’s also to help me with my own shadowwork and lightwork.

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Shadowwork: work that we do on the unseen or hidden aspects of self.

  • Why does this make me afraid?
  • What is holding me back?
  • What is fueling my regressions?


Lightwork: work that we do on the seen or visible aspects of self.

  • How can I lead with Spirit?
  • How can I be present in this moment?
  • Is this habit for my highest good?

Today’s reading came from the Good Tarot Deck because I enjoy the perspective and compassion the deck expresses; it’s beautifully imaged by Colette Baron-Reid.

I wanted to share my reading with you today:

Past: Fortune’s Wheel

Present: 8 of Air

Future: World

Advice: 3 of Air

We’re all being asked to acknowledge and remember the instances in our lives where, “destiny meets synchronicity.” Where the signs we were being given led us to someplace magical and important… where our premonitions saved us from heartbreak… where our intuitive instincts helped us navigate out of a tough situation.

Fortune’s Wheel is in the past position because the evidence that Spirit operates for our highest good can only be fully realized by looking backwards at the evidence behind us. Remember when we went against our instincts and something backfired? Remember when we followed our instincts and we were able to harvest success?

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It’s hard to have faith. As a former and reformed Atheist, faith has never been my strongest virtue. I’m an evidenced based being who thrives on predictability because the past gives us insight to the future.

As we move into the present position, the card I’m faced with is the 8 of Air, which tells me that how I am currently seeing things is holding me back from the truth. I’m clinging to my perception even though it doesn’t serve my highest good. Only through letting go that which is holding me back will I progress.

The progression is marked by the World card. By accepting things as they are, I abandon the aspect of self that’s physical and focused on physical goals and transcend into my Spiritual self that has a global an eternal perspective. I am an eternal spiritual being with the history of all of the lives I’ve lived before me. There is nothing in the physical world that will compare to the perspective gained when I remember that I am a Spiritual being who is having a temporary human experience.

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The aspect of self, Ego, that’s focused on earthly goals and driven by earthly fears holds us back. We’re afraid to die, we’re afraid to fail, we’re afraid to lose. But sometimes that’s the point, right? Sometimes that’s the path we’re meant to take. Sometimes that’s the experience we’re meant to have.

The advice card is the 3 of Air which reminds us that sometimes our highest good is met through rejection, through pain, through surviving fire and trauma. Allowing us to learn from these painful events in our lives but not allowing these painful events of our lives to become our defining identities.

It’s okay to have our hearts broken. That doesn’t define us and through it we gain the understanding of how to be better people. To not inflict the hurt on others that we experienced ourselves.

It’s okay to lose people. That doesn’t’ define us and through it we gain the understanding of how to value the time we have left in the physical sense. It also gives us the opportunity to develop a deeper spiritual awareness and learn how to live a Spirit driven experience. It allows us to  grow our relationship beyond the physical limitations of the physical body and allows our Spirit to experience profound connections with those who have transitioned into Spirit.

Our loved ones aren’t gone. They’re waiting for us to reach out and grow our ability to hold onto relationships with them that transcends the physical death of the body.

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Monday Encouragement: Take a Break, Blessings Await

In our weekly forecast yesterday, we talked about how hard you’ve been working but how little success you’ve seen in exchange for the effort you’ve been putting forth. The advice given was to embrace balance and find a way to replenish because you need it. You’re burning yourself out and you won’t be able to gain traction unless you make time for yourself.

Monday’s Wisdom card reiterates this point: blessings await you but you cannot access them until you take care of yourself.

Today’s Oracle reading is for you.

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Today’s Wisdom Oracle Card: Blessed, in reverse

When the Blessings card appears, it is usually a card of celebration, but today’s Oracle card presented in reverse. It’s a gentle reminder that so many of your frustrations are self-imposed. They can fade away. This problem you’ve been working on steadily for awhile can be easily solved. You only need a little inspiration.

Unfortunately, the amount of work you’ve been putting forth to solve the problem isn’t getting you any closer to the solution. More importantly, it’s blinding you from the solution. Find ways to delegate your load, let go of some of your burden, and focus on regenerating your batteries.

Don’t hold on to the thing that’s holding you back. Let it go and receive your blessings.



Retrospection: the Purpose of Insight

The Ace of Swords is one of the most powerful cards in the Minor Arcana of a Tarot deck. It stands for clarity. Not merely just an emerging awareness but a clarity so clear and absolute, it can be force of destruction just as it can be a force of creation. Nearly every day this week, my personal daily Tarot reading was haunted by the spirit of the Ace of Swords. My personal Tarot readings spoke about a time of transition brought about by knowledge that will shape the course of my future.

Knowledge was reflected in my reading for you today, also.


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Today’s Lenormand reading is for you.

On Fridays, after a long work week, the weekends are a sacred time. Weekends are our time to recover from the mundane servitude of our careers, our chaotic work and school schedules, and being subservient to clocks. It is a time of more freedom. More independence. Because I hold my weekends in such high regard, I have a special reading I do only for Fridays. Fridays is a day for Lenormand by the Seventh Sphere Lenormand Deck.

Card 1: Garden

Card 2: Book


Seventh Sphere Lenormand Deck

We started off the week with a message about balance. Our weekly Tarot card reading acknowledged the imbalance in our lives and how personal imbalances can lead to isolation, resentment, and frustrations that isolate us and harm the ones we love (including ourselves). Next, we examined how, without proper anchors, we create energies that carry our lives into a state of confusion, which ultimately leads us to a loss of choice and freedom. Essentially, the energies that surrounded us yesterday carry us forward into today and will impact how our future unfolds. It’s our job to harness the right energies that aid in the manifestations of our desires while releasing the counterproductive energies that don’t.

Today is Friday. A day of retrospection. It is about knowledge gained and how that knowledge can be used in service of your highest good.

The Book card is, like the Ace of Swords, a card of knowledge. It speaks to the revelation of truths about one’s self, the greater universe, and each other. It is neither good nor bad on its own. It exists without judgment. It’s not even inherently wise knowledge. It merely is knowledge.  Gained, ignored, or lost. It exists independent of our acknowledgment but it is ours for the taking should we be so bold.

Today, the Book card is paired with the Garden card. The Garden is a card that represents public access or benefit. In its most literal form, the Garden card represents a public garden or park. It is designed for the use of all. In today’s retrospection, the Garden card is symbolic of our greater good… our highest purpose.

Our Lenormand reading asks us, “How are you going to use the insight you gained this past week for your highest good?

Every week is a week full of new challenges that demand flexibility, unforeseen events that require us to adapt, and situations that offer us the opportunity for emotional growth. But are we learning these lessons? How are we applying these lessons? Or will we be doomed to repeat these lessons in the coming weeks? (How many times will I see the Ace of Swords in my daily readings until I arrive at the right message? Tune in next week…)

It’s one thing to acknowledge behaviors and patterns that no longer serve us. It’s an entirely different thing to allow that knowledge to shape our behavior.

Our Lenormand reading also asks us, “What knowledge should you be letting go of for your highest good?

The greater use and acquisition of knowledge is essential to our evolution but it’s also important to evaluate the types of lessons we are learning. Not all knowledge is equally weighted or relevant to our lives. For example, I don’t need to personally chug a bottle of poison to discover that the contents of that bottle will not serve me or my highest purpose.

This reading is also a reminder that we should be asking ourselves, “Will accessing this knowledge serve my highest purpose? Is this a lesson I need to learn?” Or perhaps there’s a less harmful way that we can arrive at the knowledge we’ve sought.

Today is an excellent day to examine what lessons we should carry with us, what lessons we will be doomed to repeat, and what lessons aren’t worth learning at all.

Weekly Forecast: The Gift of Balance

Life has felt like a struggle lately, hasn’t it? That feeling of being pulled a thousand ways all at once and, at the end of the day, there’s not enough left of you for you. There’s not enough time left for you to recharge. There’s not enough energy left for self-care. There’s simply not enough. There’s an imbalance in your life and it is wearing you down. You’re not sure how long you can sustain this pace. Yet, every day, you find yourself rising to the challenge. Because you’re a warrior. Because you’re a lover. Because you’re a saint.

Today’s Tarot reading is for you.

Your daily Tarot card reading:

Past: Two of Coins

Present: The Sun

Future: Queen of Swords

Outcome: Two of Swords



For you, the Two of Coins, acknowledges how hard you work for everyone else, and how little you do for you. The Two of Coins is a card for jugglers, for tightrope walkers, and the other agile unsung heroes that live life balancing the needs of everyone else against their own needs.

How often do you feel like your effort goes unnoticed? This card is the universe’s way of saying, “You’re not alone. I notice everything you do.” Being acknowledged for what you do for everyone else is important to feeling valued as a person and not merely as a delivery management system for solutions. And, unfortunately, when we nurture relationships in which we are always the solution, it sometimes leaves little time for us to also express wants, needs, and problems of our own. Remember: we teach people how we want to be treated. Are you satisfied with what you’re teaching those who depend on you?

There is nothing selfish about engaging in self-care, self-love, and self-protection. After all, if you don’t take care of you, you’re less likely to have the same level of energy in the future, you’re more likely to find yourself feeling under the weather, and you’re less likely to live in a state of contentment. As your fuel depletes, you’ll find yourself running on empty more often, and then what?

There’s also nothing selfish about communicating your needs, wants, and desires to your loved ones. They don’t bat an eye when it comes to asking you, why should you bat an eye asking them? You serve them because you love them. It’s time to allow others to show you how much they love you by serving you.

Expressing your needs, feelings, and desires to your loved one is a great reminder that you’re a spirit, too. Just like them. I know it frequently seems like you’re spirit by day and superhero by night but that isn’t fair to you, it’s not healthy for you, and it’s not sustainable with you.

It’s time to leave these habits that no longer serve you in the past and enter into a new phase of your life. Step out into the warm glow of The Sun.

There are several benefits of finding a healthier way to balance your needs against the needs of the world which means there are several reasons for you to start today.

  • You deserve harmony. Things are already too chaotic. Aim to make things simpler. Allowing other people to meet your needs, care for you, and protect you will improve the harmony in your relationships which will reduce conflict, tension, and disharmony.
  • It makes the world a better place. Everyone deserve to give and take. Everyone has needs to be satisfied and gifts to be given. By ensuring your personal relationships are more equally balanced, you’re teaching them the importance of balance, how to find balance in their relationships, and how to be mindful of the needs of others.
  • It reminds you of how spectacular and awesome you are. Sometimes it’s necessary to put yourselves first just because you need that reminder that we really are that important. When was the last time you romanced yourself with a candlelit bath? When was the last time you took care of yourself with your favorite decadent meal? When was the last time you spoiled you? You deserve it.

In this reading, the Sun is about saying yes to you. The message is designed to advise you on how to move forward into a new dawn. To step out into the sun and allow yourself to be warmed by the joys that life can bring. Not in excess but in balance and towards a greater balance because a life unbalanced leads to a future with the Queen of Swords.

The Queen of Swords is aptly named. Graceful, elegant, and absolutely beautiful. When the sun hits her just right, she casts light onto everything. However, there’s a darker side to the Queen of Swords. A sharper side. She is, after all, a sword. She can be used for self defense just as easily as she can be used as a weapon for aggression.

What becomes of someone who allows herself to be reduced to a means for everyone else’s satisfaction? How does she feel about herself? How do those around her learn how to meet her needs? The Three of Swords talks about one potential ending: heartbreak. Expectations are lowered until they become nothing. Resentment increases until it spoils what is good. Distance becomes the only tool to prevent relationships from further souring. Loneliness.

Remember that you have the power right now to change this outcome.

By stepping out into the joy and happiness offered by the Sun, you’re stepping out into a future that is brighter, full of love, and fairer for everyone. Including you.

Your Spirit Guide cares about you. They want happiness for you. They’ve sent me to deliver this message to you in hopes that it will guide you towards a path of balanced giving and receiving. Someone who works so hard for so many people is full of love and deserves to be loved.

Take this opportunity to evaluate the relationships in your life to ensure that you’re sending the right messages about balanced reciprocity. Evaluate your patterns of behavior to make sure you’re setting yourself up for a future in the Sun by living in the Sun today.

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